Jealousy is a bad thing. Especially when you are Fifteen. I was jealous over everything that seemed so unobtainable, but there was nothing I could do about it. It’s a hopeless feeling when you feel like TIME is your worst enemy. I wanted to be sixteen SO bad. I wanted freedom. I wanted to feel ’somewhat’ cool. I wanted my license. I wanted a gorgeous girlfriend like Megan Alba Biel. I wanted to be one of the ‘cool kids’. Mostly though, at that time, all I wanted was a car!
A New White Isuzu Trooper
That’s what HE drove. By HE, I mean Megan Alba Biel’s(her real name has been changed to protect the innocent. and to avoid any legal matters) boyfriend. A guy that lived on the street around the corner from me. A guy that was two years older than me. A guy that was better looking, cooler, and all around had a better life than I had at the time.
He had a New White Isuzu Trooper.
I rode a red Huffy for the next 6 months until I turned 15 1/2.
That is the age a teenager in Laurinburg NC can get his driving permit.
It’s hard to really feel cool until you have wheels. It was a happy day when I finally got learners permit. I was just one step away from my license, and some sense of independence (and maybe even a small sense of coolness).
I drove around with my Dad in his Black GMC Jimmy for those six months as much as possible. I made the trip around the block in our neighborhood about 5000 times during that period. With each trip I would go down Azalea Dr and pass by Megan Alba Biel’s boyfriend’s house. With each lap around the block, the greener I got with envy.
I pictured them cruising up and down Main St together (that’s all there was to do in my home town back in the day). He would have one hand on the steering wheel, with that uber cool lean that all High School guys use while driving. The other hand would be holding hers. They would be listening to the radio with the window down in the Trooper. Her soft blonde hair blowing in the breeze. Her perfect little red lips ready to give strawberry kisses…
He had all of that, and I had my Father telling me” not to ride the brake, to slow down, stop completely, look both ways before pulling out of an intersection.” I’m telling you, being fifteen sucked!!
I got really active in our Drama department in School my Tenth Grade year. I had a lot of fun performing and learning about the theater. Regular classes alway bored me, but anything creative energized me. Plus, it helped there were TONS of HOT girls in my Drama class.
I don’t want you to misunderstand, Megan Alba Biel set the benchmark for all things beautiful for me during my High School years. However, there we plenty of other girls that caught my attention as well. Many of which shared my drama class with me. I actually got the chance to know a lot of them. I felt more comfortable talking to girls in my tenth grade year. I was coming out of my shell somewhat. With the weight loss over the previous summer and the somewhat more fashionable clothes I had gotten, I felt like I fit in more. Plus, it helped that the majority of them were WAY out of my league, and I knew that going in. I can’t really say why I didn’t think the same way about MAB… I was just a hopeless romantic I guess.
They all thought I “was sweet” , and “such a nice guy”, and all the other things that a guy never wants to hear from a woman. That being said, they also taught me a lot about girls as well. When I would confide them about my secret crush on Megan Alba Biel, they would listen and try to help me deal with the frustration of looking thirteen, without a license, and feeling hopeless. I appreciated the attention, but I really didn’t take any of there advice to heart.
That is, until Kim Stone (A junior, every guys dream girl and High School Cheerleader extraordinare ) pointed out the obvious to me one day. - “Her boyfriend is a Senior. That means next year, he will be gone off to college and she may be single. That also means that you will be a junior, with a car, and who knows by then.. maybe you will have found another girl to be crazy about.”
I didn’t realize it at the time, but she was correct in just about everything she said.
The following year, I did get my license.
Her and the guy around the corner did break up.
And, I did meet a girl to take my mind of Megan Alba Biel, even for a little while (kinda).
Love Y’all
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